Mood swings seem to be curbed today. Or rather that suckiness haven left. Dunno wats wrong, but nothing's bothering me now. I rather there's something. A's over and nothing lies ahead of me. I wonder where i go from here. The day looks good, but i haven have time for resting. I rather to be busy, doing lotsa things. Yet i feel so lethargic that maybe i shldnt leave the house. Visited the doc.

Finished da darn book in less than a day. Maybe cos i read it b4 already. Interesting book, flowers for algernon. Talks about how this retard goes through an intelligence-stimulating operation-cum-experiment n becomes an ultra-genius. artifically-induced intelligence deteriorates at a rate of time directly proportional to the quantity of the increase.

All that struggle to be the best. I now wish i was a little dumb n understood less things. Then everything wld be plain n simple. Beauty in simplicity isnt always that i wanted. See things so clear n think too much. Not that i can help it. But at least it's better to remain than have ur intelligence played around by dumb scientists.

Failed miserably. Looking that TODAY again. Everyday..TODAY. I still haven lay my hands on that pair of tix. Last day, don't think i'll get it already. Feels so lousy. If only...if only...

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1:51 pm

I have strange & terrible mood swings. Extreme. I wish someone can understand what I'm feeling right now. Look, I can't even describe it. Empty? Mmm... Sucky? Uh... Well keep on guessing, I don't even know it myself.

Browsing through my secondary school readers, n stumbled upon some really nice books. I think I should start reading some, since I haven done something due like 4yrs ago? Perhaps, a job will do me well this december hols. Anything, yup just have to make do with anything since my schedule is so irregular, the job probably have to fit me rather than the other way round. But well I just need the cash.

I wish I'd a camera, or a camera phone. Saw 2 cats making out somewhere in town. So hilarious. Wish I'd captured it on screen.

Yup after blogging I still ain't feeling right. I'm tired.

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10:11 pm

standing by

Life is just like a jigsaw puzzle.
You pick up the pieces along the way,
and piece them together.
When you move into a different phrase of your life,
you start a new jigsaw puzzle.
But that doesn't mean that you throw away the old one.
Every person in your life is a piece of puzzle.
Together, they form your journey.
No matter how little they are in your life,
missing one is like missing a piece of jigsaw,
you can never have it replaced exactly,
and your life would never been complete.

you were loved at
9:55 pm

stats...n stats...

I've seen so many instances where the blogger puts something like "i dunno why i'm blogging when i should be studying". (to name some names don't say i an jian shang ren - jacq, chris, alex... those i din say doesn't mean don't haf, just i can't remember, hahaha perhaps got me also) Okay since i've named names i'm prepared to be shot...lalala~ I totally disagree with this! Since u know u should be studying then go study. If u think it's wrong to be blogging just stay online n do something else. Why blog such an unnecessary statement? It's like a rhetorical question, do for effect.

Mm happened to chance upon my old blog. Reading it is so much more enjoyable. Think the content i write nowadays in contrast lacks depth, compare to last time. Perhaps it's the experiences. Now life is so damn boring. No life. How to write interesting stuff. Hahaha... Nowadays my blog's always full of songs, totally reflects my life. Music, cause thats the thing that's accompanying me thru the books. No life indeed.

Looking forward to life after the A's. Yet, sort of dreading it at the same time. Aiyar you ppl who read my blog won't know what i'm talking about. And ppl who know what i'm talking about won't read my blog. But well ain't gonna to elaborate. Just in a state of slight confusion. You know sometimes you dunno whether you want to take a step forward, or leave things as it is. Cos when you leave things as they are, they move forward, so relatively you lack behind. Ok what a lousy analogy...

Think some of you watch champion just now. That yixuan returns to see the guy alr with another girl. Well i wld be lying if i say i don't feel sympathy for her, but sympathy aside, she deserves it! Who asks her not to cherish the ppl earlier? Gave her so many chances n done so much, but what she does is just to shoo him aside. Totally see her reflection in one of you ppl. Yes thats you who're reading this. You better wake up ur idea n treat ppl the way they treat you. And stop your "i just see buay song leh" nonsense!

So sick n tired of ppl who thinks the world revolves around them. Hey look, you're part of the world which when it revolves, you follows, not the other way!

Stats exams tmr. Oops, almost forget it's not entirely...

Love, once lost, cannot never be retrieved

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11:54 pm

= don't fix unless broken =

Fixing A Broken Heart - Indecent Obsession

There was nothing to say the day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh
Then like an answered prayer
I turned you around and found you there

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose draems have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart

Now I don't understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are neat, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You must the londliness easy to bear

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose draems have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past
'cause here we are at leat

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose draems have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart

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10:49 pm

Reflecting...

It's increasing difficult for me to accept people who severly lack moral values.

People who see others through tinted glasses (you se yan jing) should be persecuted (yes and not prosecuted)

Beauty does not overrules character deficiencies, it'll never!

Love isn't about overlooking one's faults. It's recognising them, accepting them & correcting them. I don't really mind the home-improvement committee you know...

Hate's rampant
Much as I don't want to accept this. I just don't see how some ppl can find fault with ppl they rarely know. Yup they're so perfect themselves.

Harmony brings prosperity
First time in my life I'm making a Christmas wish
Wishing for...

My friends to all love one another. Not by constantly saying "I love so-and-so very much" or something of that sort. But to accept everybody for the way they are. If anyone has a fault, so be it. Though it may be disturbing to you (or even me), may our eyes & heart be filled with love and their qualities shine above their faults.

...will be working hard to change



Capricorn's day

You are mentally alert, sharp, and on your toes during this time period. You will perform superbly in a debate or other mental task that requires quick thinking, fast response, and fluent expression of ideas. Writing comes easily now, so if you have some writing you need to do, now is a good time to do it. Business negotiations and organizational meetings of any kind run very smoothly. You can expect an upbeat atmosphere with a willingness and readiness to act on progressive ideas.

On this date you are compatible with Taurus

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7:31 pm

20 Questions to a Better Personality


Wackiness: 64/100
Rationality: 34/100
Constructiveness: 54/100
Leadership: 34/100


You are a WECF--Wacky Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a Candle burning at both ends.

You work until you drop, and you play until you can stand to work again. You have so much enthusiasm that you can find it hard to control on your own, and you appreciate the guidance that channels your energy and lets you be your best.

In a relationship, you require lots of attention and support. You often over-contribute and end up feeling depleted and cheated. You may benefit from more time alone than you grant yourself.

Your driving force is the emotional support of others--especially affection. You can run on empty for miles if you have positive energy behind you. Without it--as it occasionally must run dry--you are depressive, listless, and difficult to motivate.

You need a lot of affection. Get it any way you can, but never at the cost of your self-respect or well-being.

Of the 53792 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 7.5 % are this type.





20 Questions to a Better Relationship


eXpressive: 6/10
Practical: 8/10
Physical: 3/10
Giver: 8/10


You are a XPIG--Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Catch.

You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out.

You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can't we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved.

You're a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don't just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other's needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn't necessarily make you feel under-appreciated -- you're too well-adjusted and self-aware for that -- but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself.

Of all the types, you would make the best parent.

You are coiffed.

Didja see "Big Fish"? 'Cause you're like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish."

Of the 148917 people who have taken this quiz, 9.3 % are this type.

you were loved at
11:57 pm

"Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"

Been reading that book recently. Rather interesting, though i know it wouldn't much appeal to those chauvinistic guys out there (yup biao i'm talking about u). But anyway even the book tells us that guys don't go for self-help books, which i somewhat haf to agree. Think nobody except mi will read that kind of books. Guys at least.

Found some really true trends in the book. Those which we actually encountered in our everyday lives, but fail to pick out. Guys n gals r so farnie. So complicated. Picture this. A husband gets home n rest after a long day at work. The wife comes to him n starts to talk about her problems. Soon the husband feels the wife is too noisy, and the wife thinks that the husband is ignoring her. Tension builds....

It's true. Guys seek alleviation in couping themselves up. Gals do it by talking. Thus many of these conflicts occur. Okay i think i'm gonna write more bout the book, so whoever thinks it isn's to your liking please stay away from my blog.

A's started....

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11:48 pm