Blackout!!!

When did i last experience a blackout? Lol not that i can recall at all. So far has been rather fortunate. Hearing the experiences of the westerners it seems that Bishan is a rather 'blackout-free' estate. So today was kinda first time experience. When it happened i was inside the room n it was so dark i'd troubles looking for the door knob. Lol wished that i owned a notebook cause the next time your computer is on it wouldn't register an improper shut down. Alright midway thru the block test, and what an event! Now i understand those scholars in the past who study under the moonlight, and only under the moonlight. Sadly... Right now i've my lights i should be studying. Looking ahead of the match this coming Saturday. Whoever's reading this should come support us! Cheers! =P

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10:42 pm

Why

did Holland win......so late into the game?

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6:18 am

Look What You've Done

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

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6:20 am

Boo...

England's out =(

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6:03 am

Dreamy...

5.03am, need i say more? lol remember ivan mentioning sth like "every guy will be looking into the green in their tv tonight..." was refering to euro'04 of course. hmmm can't help but express my joyous mood now. yeah the netherlands are in! so beautiful the game they play, if they'd missed out it would be a pity for the millions of millions pairs of tired eyes. germany had only themselves to blame. a 2nd string czech side who had only beaten them once (if i'm not wrong) in history. pathetic. one thing i'm freaking out is the way baros n robbien robben played for their country. next yr's epl will definitely be a hard-fought one. never a one-side walk-over.

well an overview of euro'04 now that the group stages has just ended. hmmm a scan will tell u only the england-france group didn't produce any upsets. big big teams with great histories behind them, italy, spain, germany flew home early. blame the ref. blame unfair play. blame ur teammates for not working hard. blame the coach for his tactical errors. blame the whole world but themselves.

really weird. not feeling tired at all now. not sleepy. hungry though. let's see how well i can make use of the few hrs to school. byes for now. nitez world.

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5:03 am

Last Few Days

...b4 judgement week starts. yeah 3-sub, so what? it doesn't seems to me like there's less things to study. probably the lesser subjects removes some urgency from the already-urgency-lacking me. now i find myself in the same situation as BT1. yet ever-optimistic about my own abilities, but nearly never correct. still idling my time away. all the euro'04 & soccering times, i ask myself, isit really worth it? well always the same excuses about not having any motivation to study, but i never asked myself when will this motivation, if it'll, ever comes about? & where from?

okies now for some sort of reason the whole gang starts teasing me. & for all the reasons in the world it's actually for some1 called grace. oh man din even noe how i'm associated with her. seriously, i agree with some ppl who totally disagree with this kinda stuff. u noe precisely it's nothing right, a strange feeling now develops within the ppl involved. dunno exactly how to describe it, but now even simple conversation has to go thru some sort of "weighing the situation" thing. haiz.

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1:28 am

Harlow look here please...

Err in the middle of the night i tried to tag ur tagboard winnie, but it didn't succeed, so what i wanna say is "bigfatdot's 101 idiosyncrasies of mrs tan" is damn cool, memories ya!" =D Hope Spain wins against Portugal! Ahahaha...

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1:18 am

Happy Father's Day

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12:54 pm

The Timetable

Been long since i blogged. Not because there wasn't anything to blog, but there was nothing different to blog. Yeah that's because despite being the hols, everyday has been a routine. Going to school studying. Soccer. More soccer (watching). And sleeping. And it repeats over & over everyday. Yeah we were just discussing how this lifestyle is healthy, yar right i bet every parent wouldn't agree that sleeping late is healthy. Okies today's no routine. Yeah i dunno what i'm talking about. Talking rubbish. I'm in a mentally unstable condition, though i don't appear to be. Dots...

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8:03 pm

Under Horses, Dark Dogs...

Just hope this euro'04 won't turn into another competition of upsets & 'ball is round' incidents

A good rest. Now back to LTC. Was indeed a great camp. First major project i've been ever assigned. First time i was so actively involved in something. Indeed, worth it. Used to never understand how ppl derive pleasure from completing something rather taxing physically & emotionally. But now i do.

Learning almost everything i could. Probably cause i know nothing of this kinda stuff at first. But yeah it was a nice thing, planning for the thing, receeing & then during the camp do some firefighting. Wasn't particular stressful or tired during the camp, probably cause there wasn't really any particular routine for me to follow. It's like "wherever or whenever you're needed, you'll be informed". Thankful that night cycling went on smoothly, at least it didn't rain. Though not as smoothly as we expected, with several hiccups. Now i look ahead & wonder if the stuff i learn can take me through, and yeah, through what?

Was expecting a lunch together at the end of it, unfortunately nothing that sort ever came out.

Farewell? Sooner or later...

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4:17 am

I hate cancer!

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9:27 pm

Camp's over, but the highlight of the day was really a 3+hr wait outside my house. Sigh

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5:37 pm

Hmmm, was talking to someone about studying and suddenly remembered that i haven started anything yet. How farnie! And she was just telling me how she was planning her this week schedule and how plans actually give urgency. Well, what kind of plans could i have? Plan for LTC!? Okie let's see..after LTC i'll have 2 weeks left. For one week i definitely will want to rest and enjoy the freedom. So i guess i don't have anytime. Oh man tell me this isn't true. Sadly. Alright cannot believe i suddenly remember i've class tmr! This sucks man! Planning for LTC planning then now class comes. Or is it class came first? Oh well i don't like forgetting things cos when you suddenly remember it's like even worse than b4. Hmmm a post of complains. Back to planning. All the talk about planning. To think the only time i planned for an exam was BT1 this year, and the only exam i failed. Personally i would prefer a flexible working time and schedule cos i feel making the 'dateline' always is a stressing thing and stress just kills doesn't it? How i wish this flexiblity doesn't have to have discipline incorporated. Yeah discipline. To think that ms ng actually told me she could tell i was disciplined. Hah! Looks like i carried myself well enough. To fool everyone, even myself at times. That's the result! Okie i'll look myself into the mirror. And start taking out a calander. Hopefully a change can change results =D

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10:59 pm

Supposed to be asleep now. But my heart is unwilling. As i type on my keyboard, i know there are some things that just cannot be truthfully penned down. Ironically, this thingy that's supposed to express our thoughts become a tool for us to write our opinions, at the same time hide some. I've got stuff to say. But i know i'll hurt people, sour relationships and cause irreversible damage. I'm confused.

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6:49 pm

An exciting night. Everything that can go wrong went wrong. But everything that can be savaged was savaged. A close encounter with death. Terrible things happen. Really an activity full of surprises. Hopefully now we're equipped with experience. Experience of things going wrong. It wasn't nice at all. But it was necessary.

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11:31 am

Middle of the night. My clock shows 2am. Gosh, what a time when a normal one should be snugged in the comfort of his blankets. God knows what i'm doing. With a pc & some binded booklets that says international trade in front, okies i know i'm facing the wrong side, but heck! Take a break (ironically a break means rest from a certain journey, mine is zero!). Oh well i'll start after blogging. Yeah agree with ivan this blog thingy has become an indepensible part of our lives. It isn't something like eating, sleeping or doing business, not something u cannot do w/o. But it's like chatting in the cafe with your buddies or sms-ing ur certain one 'goodnight'. Something you can do w/o, but when u do u become uncomfortable, uneasy because something's missing. Hahaha..

Oh replaying the past weeks events in my head, certainly a busy week, with no exactly a highlight day for everyday is as bad as another. Some more interesting events include kampong soccer, night biking recee & games dry run. But seems that my world just revolves 2 components, my studies n cca. Sigh sadly i've no enjoyment n motivation in committing my time into the former. Simply turns me off. However, all the proposal rushing, briefing, dry runs, recees are worth it, in my sense though not practically but i just know they mean alot in my heart. Contradictory to the advice ms jenny ng gifted me, haiz..

Hmmm such a late hour don't think i can find any dumbasses to talk to me. Almost everyone has gone to bed & the one i see i shall not speak to for she's definitely studying. Dots. I really should zhen1 qi4 yi4 dian3. Fwah, my heck attitude will get me nowhere. But i just can't keep my heart still..n focused. I never dream of a good life, riches, fame. But sometimes the expectations weighted on me i just can't ignore. Think of the disappointment. Even i won't forgive myself for that. Angel_hh VS devil_hh. Woah.. Okie enuf of this, i think later i'll leave this small box for the bigger one in the living room. Haven watch mr. cong's treble disc n at the same time try to mug. Ah multi-task uh, good reasons for it, dowan to fall asleep on my books. But so far haven seen results. Muahahaha..

Was listening to my playlist when i came across this song that never fails to touch my heart a little, just a poke maybe, hee. But seriously this song has some really interesting lyrics, stirs your thoughts - graduation (friends forever). Think real hard about the extracted parts, it's so true..

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town?

It's sad isn't it?

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2:00 am

Thanks Ivan for a song that could last a night on my playlist, alone...!

Angels Brought Me Here

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

A thousand and one things I've to pen down, nowadays things are happening so fast. Very soon I'll forget this day. Sigh. ZzzZZz...

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11:40 pm