Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Ups and Downs
Since I started blogging, I've always go to the fullest of my abilities to choose the type of font that I feel most people would find pleasant reading. I've always avoided font types like the one I'm using right now, even though I LOVE this kind of writing. But today I feel like doing something that I want, rather than something that everyone else may prefer. I feel selfish, seldom so but today. Selfishness is a point of view. It IS the way one views another - oh he is so SELFISH. It's not a universal truth.
I miss the good old days of pursuit. You know, you may not think it is, but I'm darn sure that's when every little sweet thing is euphoric to either of you. It's when your hormones are flying and your feelings are like butterflies. It's when every teeny weeny thing coax the best of the receiver. Your heart nearly flew out when she said yes to a date. Your mind went missing when you saw her dressed up for you. Your world stopped when she nodded bashfully. It's those times when logic means nothing, when reason becomes distorted and when you feel you can survive a thousand feet fall! Yet, those times are disturbingly insufficient. Not because they're too short, but because they only come once every twenty years.
I used to think simple LOVE was sweet love. But it's only when you dedicate your time, your life, your heart and soul and love into one other person, you realize it's no longer simple. In fact it can't be more complicated than any other thing in the whole wide world, because there IS no right or wrong, there is no reasoning and there is nothing that can prove you right or otherwise. And no one single person can actually lay claim that his/her love for someone is more than another, for love is not measureable. It is not A quantity or whatever so, it is not comparable because it is always different.
People used to dream of Love-at-first-sight and stuff like this, like fantasies and fairy tales. But in actual fact most of us develop love. Many like to say it is something not within their control to love or not love, I myself possibly falling victim to the former, but it is in fact a mixture of situation and CHOICE. People choose to love. People choose to throw themselves in. Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You’ve always known your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived life can be loved alone
you were loved at
12:17 pm
